Wednesday, December 31, 2025

Mal de vivre



Do you guess there's something more important than me?
today it's time for joy, for feast, for happiness...
I have nothing to celebrate....
just voices invading my frail mind
jerking off by paranoid and lust
waiting for the right moment of pleasure
and trees to cut off
and skyscrapers to climb.
you're my strenght, my wisdom
I have never had.
you're digging deep inside my soul
maybe hoping to rescue me or my petals!
scrambling in pieces
we don't find a dustman
to embrace our gruesome rubbles...
and we go astray
we pail around
in search of a spark of bright escape...
I don't know the conclusions,
just the starts or restarts...
having to have you?
feelings go mad...
the sky is still dark this morning,
sympathetically.
I don't need the nth illusion
but intimate fusion
or a numbness of passion
and nothing else to think about!
I feel an euthanasia pain.
Mal de vivre.
I'll go out soon.
Or maybe I'm already gone. 

Monday, December 15, 2025

Figli della notte/ Sons of darkness





Avrei voluto poggiare la mia testa sul tuo petto, cuore mio, 
stanotte,
ed essere incatenata in un tuo forte abbraccio
per non farmi volare ancora una volta via.
Non tornerà più il passato, amore,
una serie di velleità nascoste e parole non dette,
un'afonia del cuore e un'anima obnubilata,
estraniata.
Io e tu una cosa sola,
pulsione repressa,
come un delirio erotico.
Una rosa porpora e nera
come le tue labbra
che tremano di passione...
La legge del desiderio e la fretta dell'istante...
come Icaro scioglie le sue ali al sole
noi viviamo la notte, il regno del mistero,
come una culla,
senza vincitori né vinti,
in un'anestesia che ci aliena dal mondo e rapisce il nostro istinto
dove noi siamo noi
e tutto l'universo intorno cade...così distante,
così vacuo...anzi vuoto.
Siamo carne e sangue e l'anima chissà...
Tigri nelle macchine che celano vulnerabilità proibite
e chi si arrende è fuori.
Estromessi dal cemento, agogniamo a qualche bucolica demistificazione.
Natura umana violentata,
estrapolata, sguinzagliata, mercificata.
Vorrei fermare l'oggi
per rivivere ancora un giorno in più un'emozione crescente
in cui tutto diventa alchimia,
scrollandoci di dosso le futilità stanche
di un mondo che ha perso ogni speranza,
e in cui ogni dolore svanisce,
in una droga che i nostri odori fondono e, coi noi brividi, fremono.




I'd have liked leaning my head on your chest, my sweetheart, 
tonight,
and being chained in a strong hug of yours
to not make me fly away once again.
The past will never come back, my love,
a bundle of hidden velleities and never said words,
an aphonia of the heart and an obnubilated soul,
estranged.
You and I, just one thing,
repressed pulsion
as an erotic raving.
A purple and black rose
as your lips
that tremble of passion...
the law of desire and the rush of the ticking moment
just like Icarus melt his wings under the sun
we live the night, the kingdom of mystery,
as a cradle,
with neither winners nor losers,
in an anesthesia that alienate us from the world and cut off our istinct
where we are just us
and all the universe around falls out...so distant,
 so vain...actually, void.
We are flesh and blood and who knows about the soul...
Tigers in the machines that conceal forbidden vulnerabilities
and who gives up is sidelined.
Ejected by the cement, we crave for some bucolic demystification.
Raped human nature,
pulled out, unleashed, commodified.
I'd like stopping the nowhere
to live again one more day a rising emotion
where all becomes alchemy,
shrugging off from us the weary futilities
in a world that has lost every hope,
and in which every pain vanishes,
in a drug that our smells merge and, along with our shiverings, quiver.